i miss my friends....

i follow them around whenever i can. i don't want to lose them.

Ginger? oh, is that her name? she's the one i think saw me...... at least i hope she did!!! maybe she can really see me!! maybe she can help!!! but i'm scared to get my hopes up, especially after...

Green, i actually managed to speak with in a dream once....... but i wish i didn't. xe didn't really understand, and now look what's happened... i dont want green to ruin xer life over me. but i'm also a little happy that xe cares so much. that i'm not forgotten.

Pink... i shouldn't be upset that she's so fully bought into that fake as me. i mean, who would believe such a wild story?! i don't know if i would, if i wasn't living it. but whenever i see them hanging out i want to cry. i miss her.

Lilac, she's so.... how could she do this to me?! and she doesn't even care, she thinks she's some kind of genius for doing this!! well-

-but i don't want to be mad. i think being mad is probably really bad for you if you're a ghost. the last thing i want is to turn into whatever kind of evil spirit that's puppeting my body right now.

What does that demon even want? it does nothing but steal and destroy everything important to me, and i cant figure out any motive besides hurting me. i used to think it was all lilac's doing but i dont think so anymore. someone else is there.... someone terrible.

Navy... I miss him so much.... that ghoul loves hurting him where I can see it. I know it's all just to hurt me but he thinks he did something to deserve it. i talk to him every day even if he can't hear. i forgive you, i'll tell you that a million times if you want to hear it but there's nothing to forgive even. i'm coming back. i love you.

...is someone there? are you listening?

no... it couldn't be....